Day 679

Fear of the unknown can be absolutely frightening! This morning, our sweet Gus reacted to the snowplows clearing our streets at 4 a. m. in the morning! There is no way to explain it or calm a fear so huge! Finally, Gus and I went downstairs to snuggle and comfort until the rest of the household emerged! Even though I was sleepy, it was such a gift to be able to make him feel safe.

When I was young, there were people and places that could calm my irrational fears. Trusted and safe, these individuals (or places) helped calm me enough to process why the reason for my anxiety was not going to hurt me.

Along with our Goldens (the Thunder shirts will be utilized soon), our sweet, rescued Nicky was in need of comforting when we would travel in the car together. He joined us at age 12 and suffered from a seizure disorder. When his anxiety level spiked, he would sometimes head in that direction. Interestingly enough, when I would hold him and sing his special song (Snuggle Puppy), he would relax and avoid any scary reactions. Sweet boy!

To be able to comfort others brings feelings of gratitude in my heart. Whereas others once calmed my fears, now I can offer that same gift to those around me who are afraid. One of my favorite poems defines my feelings perfectly...

"If I can stop one heart from breaking,

I shall not live in vain;

If I can ease one heart the aching,

Or cool one pain,

Or help one fainting robin

Unto his nest again,

I shall not live in vain."

Emily Dickinson

So tonight, if those scary plows darken our door, I will still be sleepy...but grateful to be the one to offer comfort to our dear Gus.