Day 1058

Relief is such an interesting emotion. It seems to be a cross between solace and a gentle elation. For me, there are often a few tears to accompany news that puts our hearts at ease. Today, we went to the University of Minnesota, once again, to have Lilly’s bloodwork rechecked. It seems that her calcium levels were elevated in the last blood draw. Today, they were within normal levels! Relief!

Lilly seemed relieved too! I walked her to the lab with her technician and we almost made it! Just before I needed to turn around, our girl put the brakes on and refused to move! She was determined to stay with her mama! She was finally lured into the back, but not without a fight! Miss Lilly showed some reluctance to leave me, but followed the tech grudgingly. When she was allowed to rejoin us, she did so at a dead run!!!

There have been times in my life when relief followed heightened concerns… usually unfounded fears, but fears nonetheless. That rush of gratitude and relief was palpable. Sick children, job concerns, life changes…you name it, I can create anxiety! It seems that if I worry enough, I believe I will be more prepared to face what might be coming. When I am wrong, Relief is always my friend!

The antidote for for being anxious is challenging for me. Worry is my middle name! The only good part is the relief that follows. My college roommate would always remind me of the wasted time I spent worrying and full of anxiety. Of course, she was right, but I still spin my wheels.

Today, my relief was a gift and Miss Lilly will get a few extra treats for being a good girl! After all, her anxiety level was probably off the charts!